Running In Circles

"will i still like you after some time has passed"

the world around me is settling down. or are they going thru a phase of life that i've already gone through... a stepping stone that some take earlier and some later. is it always better to take the step earlier than ur peers? or is it better to sit back and watch others take it 1st before taking that same step in order to not repeat the mistakes of the rash and fool hardy. but shld we choose the latter is it still the same stepping stone? or is it the same stepping stone but on a different path, the left fork instead of the right.

the young believe they live forever. i'm not that old but why do i feel so. been there, done that. not many things i cant say i've not done in one sense or another. so much new things to experience if only i'll bother to look out for them. i guess everyone grows up once in a while. maybe it's time for me to start growing again.

if you could freeze one period in your life and relive it over and over and over. where nothing changes and ur in the "happiest" time of your life. would you do it? imagine the bliss your will feel. you'll never get bored, feel that it's stale or simply get sick of it because ur having the time of your life. is this what nirvana is supposed to be? but what is living if not for the change. no doubts, heart ache and pain. would you do it? give up all other possibilities for this guarenteed state, for better or worst. would you do it?

people from my past are suddenly reappearing in my life again. some in a big way, others not so big. but they're rocking the very foundations of my beliefs, morals and life. where i used to say "touch and go", "happy go lucky". KARMA. not prepared to see some of them again. in fact never want to see some of them. but well, how big is this tiny island. bullocks. BULLOCKS.

many songs sing about the eternal triangle, a man, a beautiful woman and love. well most songs at least. ever wondered why chinese songs only sing about love? it's like the scope for chinese songs is so narrow. take a mental note of all the chinese songs u know and tell me how many of them are NOT related to love. then again, most songs in one way or another relate to love. are we listening to what the singers want us to hear? or are they singing what we want to hear?

ever tried the road to self discovery? been trying to do that since i started writing this blog. for ever road that i discover, i reach a cross road with 10 more unexplored paths. is it possible to truely know oneself? to be able to look oneself straight in the face and say " your a insecure, possesive and immature fucker." well, i feel most cannot face up to this reality and continue to hide from themselves. myself included.