Neon Genesis

everyone has a perception of me. my father has one, my mom has one, my sis, basically everyone has an image of me myself included. but then if their perceptions of me are the true me and i am the true me what then constiutes me?

each individual's perception of me is true, at least to them. that is to say what i think and feel about a certain person is true. and that is how that person is viewed, at least to me. and what i think of myself is true to myself at least. then wouldnt i want them to think the best of me. at least in that case everyone will see me as the ideal person. but then if i do that then i will be true to everyone except myself. then should i go about doing what everyone would like me to do at the expense of my own self identity or should i go around pissing the whole world off. or should we all be so blessed that our personal goals run parrellel to the goals of the real world.

is it possible to combine every single happy memory we have and thread it into a rosebeads that we can hold on to and grab at everytime we are under going some emotional turmoil... but we cannot do that, it is simply impossible.

people always bitch at how unlucky they are, how they missed the bus, how they missed the train, how they got caught for not putting a parking coupon and how life is unfair. but do they actually remember when they reached the bus stop and the bus came before they sat down, how they rushed down the flight of steps and got into the train as the doors were closing, how they got away with free parking 10 times in a row and how things seem to be going their way...

but then again if we would like to remember all the happy thoughts then why do we never seem to remember those.

happiness is a state of mind. if we think we're happy then we are happy.

i think i'm happy. therefore i am happy. simple.